manado?

time seems to pass rather quickly it feels....i was moaning about pending monday..now already end of wed....just ystd celebrated my parallel universe fren's bday by having satisfying dinner at shaslik during which I was informed that i am rather kok since i didn't figure out how to set the date on my watch properly.

After that, I relied on trusty taxi uncle to send me home....during the journey, he asked me to read this police broadcast message on his taxi call booking screen...some big sized guy was out on the loose with one hand still in cuffs...then the taxi uncle say he knows who the dude is!! he is some guy who is a drug addict and hangs arnd in the taxi uncle's neighbourhood and the taxi uncle buys illegal ciggies from this dude for 1/2 the regular price! At this point i also don't know whether to believe or not loh...abit too coincidental right? anyway...i let it slide la, so kaypoh for what right.

On another topic...I think I need to get away and breathe some compressed air again, dunno when will I get the chance...just when the subject crossed my mind, got a msn message asking if I was keen to go manado to dive end Aug...hmmmm..can consider ley...any other takers??? I've only been there once and I told myself it's definitely worth it to go dive lembeh again....itz just the thought of jumping into the cold water that makes me hesitate. I can feel the chill in my bones just thinking about it...

connect the dots looking backwards

back from "alumni" dinner...seems like the few of us still trying to find out footing and get a comfortable stance in our chosen companies....it's not been easy...hope it will all work out for all...

was reading the text of one of Steve Job's speech (http://news-service.stanford.edu/news/2005/june15/jobs-061505.html)
In it he spoke about connecting the dots looking backwards...i think i can relate....i couldn't see back then....where my haphazard work experience would lead me...but now i guess the time i clocked in the other companies really did help me to 'pick up' faster at this new dept....it sure is darn hectic but at least the learning curve ain't too steep.....hopefully i'll handle the intensity well as i gain experience...

even landing the transfer to this dept was quite a challenge, but now looking back...some stuff had to not work out in order for other stuff to...and a series of small events that included frustrating news & interesting yet vital coincidences so minute it was barely a whisper that could easily have been missed......so it all falls into place and works out in the end....

Contrary to what my dear fren sms me today, i do not think God is on vacation...i think we just can't see his plan until it is unfurled before us....so take heart....keep the faith....and rmbr "all good things!"

hot dog

last nite i had a dream...and i seldom dream...or rather i mostly don't remember even if i do.
Could be that i'm waking up much earlier these days...before sunrise....so that's why can recall parts of the dream...
in my dream...i was patting the head of a pooch.....that one minute look like beemer(goldie)...next minute look like scout(brown & white border collie)...duh..confusing..haa

then ...cut over to another scene, i had my arm around a cute guy with a hot bod...?
then then then...
then i woke up......
so hor..tomorrow i set my alarm clock 5mins earlier...maybe can recall more if i do dream again......or maybe i'll just go have a hot dog...*sigh*

ohmmmmm

been a long hectic week...1st week officially at the new dept....wah siong! think this is the 1st time i start new job don't have 'honeymoon' period one. Really gotta hit the ground running...or rather sprinting....so by the time friday came around i was already dam chuan. Somemore was left alone for a short period (think only 25mins or so but felt like an eternity) one day and i nearly died juggling 3 phones and 2 bloomberg terminals.......... So looked forward to the weekend break. As usual it comes arnd and goes way too quickly...sun is coming to an end...monday will be dawning soon...and the madness is gonna start again!

*suck in deep breath*

Bottled apology

2nd time...booking screwed up again....told me 'they were not informed of my arrival but will let me check in anyways"...like hellllooo? doing me a big favor is it?.......the pea lost her zen quite awhile ago with this so called 'top svc aptm chain'.....told the charboh off that this is the 2nd time they've screwd things up for me. At the very least they 'zhi chuo neng gai', i returned to the room to find a bottled apology...altho' i don't drink, itz still a nice touch, quench the hell fires abit.

Last week thur was HK holiday, of course i didn't have to go in to work right? wrong again.....i found out this week that the CB si ang moh actually complained that i shld've come in to work since my flight was only in the afternoon. Hear already dam buay soong loh. I really think my 'yuan' does not lie with this dept....let's hope things pick up at the new dept....if it doesn't, my resignation letter is typed and ever ready...just need to change the date only lor.....afterall it's just a job, they don't own me, and when things get too ridiculous, just hv to say adios amigos.....wish me luck my friends....maybe i should read some 'hong chui' books also, haa...

shama again!??!

Just when i thought, ahhh..finally back home...can try to eat abit of snake for the last week of work in this present dept...it's been a hectic week, could do with some down time..... I got a call on fri evening at 7pm to ask me to go over to HK again next week! DAMN!

Last week in HK, it was a holiday on thur so i earned one day off...but this coming week, thur is a holiday in S'pore but NOT in HK, so i gotta pay back that one day....nabei...i can't win with this company la...itz v annoying...

I don't know which is worse, the thought of having to work on a s'pre holiday or the thought of having to check in to that damn screwed up place again....u know what? i think the latter takes the cake.

I really hope that book lao pa was reading is true...june 6th is the date to look fwd to...for after that date....all ye dragons will hv a fantastic time!

The recent case of sudden death reported in the papers, of a 29yr old guy who is rather well known in the local music industry is v sad. Turns out my folks play golf with his folks n they are rather good friends, so i think it's rather close to home in a way. Mum was tellg me about it when they fetched me from the airport, the boy was working very hard on a upcoming project and was very stressed out, can imagine family's pain n loss, and all i can think of is that life is so precious n fragile, somethings are just not worth it... so guess have to live a balanced life...and learn when to say enough is enough so f off...haa..

KNNBCCB shama

my hk trip has not been smooth thus far.
sequence of events:

day1
- 5min trip to changi airport, very smooth, when i got out of the car, i realised i was leaving a trail of white rubber. My arseluck in choosing a pair of shoes that i hv not worn in over 2yrs and no checking the base which was basically too brittle.
So after check in gotta go buy charles & keith sandal, quite kok.

-flight to HK, rather smooth, in my clumsiness i accidentally flicked some butter onto someone's laptop, lucky he busy eating neh see, i also heng my reflexes quite fast, hurry up wipe off and pretend nothing happen,continue eating....

-reach HK, customs queue, taxi queue all dam long, took me almost 2hrs to reach service aptm. While waiting got a call from s'pore office secretary saying that the stoopid farking hotel pple went to email my office and cc my farking big boss in hk that 2 of my friends hv checked in and are staying with me. All i blardi told them to do was to allow them to put luggage in the room 1st. Imagine how bad this looks. fucking upset for the rest of the day, cldn't even eat dinner properly, kept thinking wat the hell gonna happen 2mr.

day2
-got up dam early coz basically didn't sleep all that well, got ready, took a cab to work.
old groucy taxi driver didn't understand me and i had to call my collg for help in translation.
- thankfully big farking boss was in big farking london, so i didn't have to deal with it face to face, just dropped him an email and all was clear. think it was just blew way out of proportion la...
-Cursing at the shama svc aptm pple was v apt, don't believe 'top' chains handle things like dat loh, they cld've at least had the decency to wait for me to arrive to clarify things.
-had some gd company for dinner with hilarious thai stand up comedy act by pegs...
-chilling out at her plc as i make use of lao pa's laptop n peg's broadband connection.

1more work day to go then hopefully will have enough time for some shopping ..

what can i say...i do not like HK...=(

Ah Di ah!

A normal lazy saturday, nuah until hungry so walk to the outside kopitiam to buy lunch.

5min walk out...5min walk back...no need to dress up for sure.

Q up to buy 'teh peng' to quench the afternoon thirst, the drinks' stall auntie in her fervour to serve fast fast..barely glanced at me and asked 'ah di yao she mer'?

I pretend neh hear the 1st part of the question and gave her my order while looking at her straight in the eye. think she felt bad la after she look properly....ha...i was more amused than insulted. Got me thinking on my 5min walk home...was it my short hair? was it my happening army print bermudas? I think it's time for a change...i think i need to grow my hair out long...=P

where's the justice?

Just when i think i've accepted things and am more or less at peace w the situation and am moving forward.
I find out by chance that the irritating bugger has told yet another person that his bonus has hit 6figures. Don't these pple ever learn the meaning of the word 'humble' or that you can't 'buy' friends? or that respect is not earned n measured by how great u r trying to tell pple u r?
Worse still, where's the fucking justice if the HR can give him so much, and deny me my measely peanut dust for last yr????? Ni nabu la.
Neh mind, can only tell myself that only good things will come to me and my friends...
I am told today that i need to 'do them a favour' n fly myself to HK to do handover to a new fella. Such is the kok-ness of this plc, sign n charge away i shall, since it sure ain't going into my pocket na?

P's vision software upgrade successful!

I can see! It's rather amazing really, quite scary too, can see everythg that is happening. The aftermath with the plastic cups look quite kok..but 'an quan di yi, an quan di yi'.

Bottles of Solo care solution and unused focus dailies (500 degrees) to give away..anybody?? heh

debrief

realised a coupla things over last week.

1) boys can and probably are more sampat n gossipy than girls. the only difference is, they can gossip and shoot very succint questions at the subject of the gossip who is present in their midst.
girls generally will give face and only gossip behind the subject's back.

2) Mary's food still lives up to standards, and I feel hungry just thinking about the goreng pisangs and ngoh hiang rolls...yum...

3) Met up with a fren i haven't caught up with for awhile and she passed me 'the secret'...good reminder of all the stuff that I know and should be using but have lost sight of along the way.

4) Take home quote from Spidey 3 :"For all the things that life throws at us, there's always a choice".

5) If all else fails, when i grow old and wrinkled, I have a couple who will gladly totter around and watch tv with me (esp porn channels 304-309?) and laugh at the subtitles until our false teeth drop out. It's part sad...part reassuring ...don't know how else to describe it man...

go away!

back from trip...still in denial...can the real world go away for longer please?

(pic stolen from dix's collection) ...island kitty sure knows how to let it all go, shut the world out, don't listen to a dam thang...

Shackaroo

Shackadoobeedoo!! yes i am.
Was looking fwd to annual kaleebso...now m so tired i am just glad to go away for a couple of days...the promise of gd food, gd fun, gd diving? sure helps..

*yawn* *stretch* *sigh*

msia boleh!

only in msia, this is what i call 'creating employment', imagine how many enforcement officers they need to employ to 'catch & scold people'.

tired tired....need a good laugh.....need a long break....need not to work...*bleah*

Hard day's work

oh...it's been a long n testy week...nothing like some good ole' exercise to release the pent up frustration and get my mind off things by tiring myself out.

If I were a cat...I probably look like this...the 'pose' says it all...shack out manz!!!....life is good for this cat it seems...taking a catnap next to the aromatic vapours of changi village's famous nasi lemak stall...it must be in kitty heaven...

Feeling slightly more hopeful now that i've had the weekend to ponder things through, pray for me my friends...we all could do with a lil' divine help.

storm before the calm?

Looking out of my office window, the color of the sky matches my mood for the last few days...cloudy, black and potentially stormy...told off a collg who i got dam irritated with.

to his question asking me for lunch so he can try to pry more info, my response was

:" I think i hv gd reason not to be in the best of moods right now, and to be honest with you that I'd rather not sit there and NOT answer your questions, so i'd pass on lunch if u can understand why."

not very fierce la (since when i ever scold pple) but i think i got the message across....

i can only grin and bear it and act like everything's fine and dandy...which by me is darn hard to do....at this age, i am even thinking of playing truant(coz i never did much of it back in school days)...it's pathetic...and it just goes to show the level of resentment in my lil' heart...

to be or not to be....

current plc Pluses:
Mostly boh zeng hu, no one hounds me for stuff or breathes down my neck
better rewards coz it's supposed to be a front trading position
I'm getting used to the nature of the job n the systems involved

current plc Minuses:
boring environment
Uncertain future
Annoyance at mgmt for dragging feet abt impt stuff (my money!!!)
Annoyance at myself for kena bluff coz i didn't clarify when i joined
Annoyance at doing work that is not reflected by my position
Annoyance at silly magic mushroom muffins eating counterparts who make my job harder
Annoyance at the lack of direction
Annoyance at the blurring of lines
General annoyance la!
Staring at 4screens not doing my eyesight any good...
Incongruency ...that's the word...i can't describe it anyway else....i feel like it ain't really what i shld be doing ( i shld be tai tai enjoying in bahamas on toto winnings..hee)

new plc pluses
'perceived' better environment...coz already know the pple and culture
So will largely still be a boh si mi zeng hu style...
if they can give me more moolah..of course betta la
i think at most 2 screens only.

new plc minuses
step back into that area then forget abt moving front again, right now not sure what i prefer
no chance of getting big big bonus
potentially long hours
certainty of me complaining abt stuff after settling in if i choose to go...just gimme a mth or two..

there is no one perfect solution...but there are always choices to be made...so what will it be
there are experiments done that proof that given 5secs or 5mins or 5days...we'll still come back to the same gut feeling instant decision...
i shall keep an open mind n go find out more 1st then say...

as wide as u can.....

had my lasik eye checkup yesterday....
throughout the examination, they keep telling me to 'open your eyes as wide as you can...wider..more...wider..."
after a few attempts you'd think that they will realise that it is not the case where I am not coorperating but rather i simply cannot.
I have lazy eye and lazy eyelid syndrome...it's "consistent" if u know what i mean =P ...plus modern ang moh equipment is not really tailored for slitty asian eyes...i had to resort to holding my eyelid up with my lil' index finger.
so it's set.....gonna do it next month...hope all goes well...

what do u make of this

i've been told that by reading someone's blog, you get a sense of that person.
Of what is said and unsaid, read between the lines, is this person proud? happy? cynical? ashamed? hiding behind a mask? a zi lian kuang? slightly deranged? simple? complicated?

or like me just plain ol' in need of a super long long holiday ...should do the take three weeks off back to back thing i did 2yrs ago...or even better take a even longer break when i strike toto? Ah...in life all we need is hope!

with that in mind i was thinkg about my friends' masterpieces....one runs like there's no 2mr...another posts pic of himself for himself to look at(did i mention zi lian kuang?)......one sits on the royal throne in the bathroom and comes up with philosophical stuff...one takes pictures of pretty flowers and gives thanks to her ex-bf among other things....one likes to wax lyrical on all things political......one complains abt life and love and work and not striking toto....well that's just what they write about...but who are they really? gotta read betw the lines....and i'm glad i've got this varied assortment of kakis...makes my life more interesting too...

so pray tell...what do you read from here? heh..=P

broken

what happens when I leave the window open and go out?

the wind blows strongly when it rains or the little birdies outside decide to hop in for a snook around?

i come home to discover that it's broken =(

i've had it with me for almost 10yrs...now all shattered in bits and pieces on the floor...it's not spectacularly beautiful but it was a nice & sweet gift.... now it's place is in the bin...irrepairable....irreplaceable...lost...gone....