It's done it's done...after some anxious hrs waiting on the part of a kanchiong papa pea....pea's ulu home is sold today....so in 3mths....pea's home of the last 19yrs will be no more a 'home' to pea. Quite sad actually, will definitely miss this place....will make the most of it before we move..... A foodie gathering is in order.....date to be confirmed....let it all sink in first....thank you to my 'adopted' dad for a job well done. As a true blue fisherman would say "nab shot!" ;)
in the essence of this mantra a good friend once lived by "what will pea do?"
it's now a question of "where will pea go?" ...
February 26, 2008
February 24, 2008
changes
change is in the air.....
i think this yr is a yr full of new surprises and changes......carpe diem should be the rule to live by.....on a different note, kena 'pep talk' by mama pea today....she was thinking out loud that she's worried that i might grow old alone. said it's best to have a partner or failing that to stay with a good friend. (i was thinking can keep a pet dog what..heh..but thought i'd better keep that thought to myself) . She also said i should take action n be abit aggressive (**grrrrr*** : !!!) haa... that boys nowadays won't do the chasing, so if i see someone i like i should make the first move....(i think I need a club to clobber the guy n drag him back to my cave or somethg?...)
all this just when i thought my folks were pretty cool with things...ah well.....if i start calling u guys, don't panic ok? maybe i just need room and board when i'm old....
i think this yr is a yr full of new surprises and changes......carpe diem should be the rule to live by.....on a different note, kena 'pep talk' by mama pea today....she was thinking out loud that she's worried that i might grow old alone. said it's best to have a partner or failing that to stay with a good friend. (i was thinking can keep a pet dog what..heh..but thought i'd better keep that thought to myself) . She also said i should take action n be abit aggressive (**grrrrr*** : !!!) haa... that boys nowadays won't do the chasing, so if i see someone i like i should make the first move....(i think I need a club to clobber the guy n drag him back to my cave or somethg?...)
all this just when i thought my folks were pretty cool with things...ah well.....if i start calling u guys, don't panic ok? maybe i just need room and board when i'm old....
February 13, 2008
Happy Ren Ri!
Was one of the first few hundred on the s'pore flyer...so lucky hor, those corporates really paid an exorbitant amount for clients to go up n loh hei high up in the sky in capsules with funky blue lighting which makes all the food look rather unappetising.
Lion dance in office today was rather entertaining, the lion spat out the vege which nearly hit me so means I should have super duper good luck this yr....huat ah!
February 07, 2008
of stairs n casinos....
Gong hey fatt choy!
It's now 12noon on the 1st day of CNY. I'm sitting at my desk at work. The only one here in this bank that is spread over at least 6 floors.
Been here since 8am, have finished archiving emails, re-writing my messy address book, ate my cup noodles, tv is on, nothing much to watch, got cable but only those news channels so not very helpful either. Received one phonecall that is some weird cheena recorded message, so i just hang up. Normally wouldn't log in at work, but i've got 4more hours to go.....so might as well do something.
Couple of nights ago, I again had a damn weird dream. Wanted to blog about it but couldn't find time till now.
I dreamt me and at least 2 others (faceless in the dream, not sure who) were leaving my ex-collg house warming gathering. Instead of taking the lift, we took the stairs instead. As we got nearer to ground level, the look of the flats started to change, from very new, pleasant looking clean flats to dunk and musty, dark looking staircase landings and old old wooden doors. Remember feeling rather un-nerved in the dream so made haste down the stairs.
Finally got to the last series of steps and it ended with a door. When i opened the door, i saw before me a huge room, kinda like below me, in a huge pit sort of. And the best part is, this room is full of pple, it's actually a casino!!! And there were no steps to get down to it, so instead you gotta kinda take a leap and sort of glide weightless over the people's heads and land somewhere near the front glass doors. Then the dream ended or at least that's what i can recall. Haaa...Dam weird.
It's now 12noon on the 1st day of CNY. I'm sitting at my desk at work. The only one here in this bank that is spread over at least 6 floors.
Been here since 8am, have finished archiving emails, re-writing my messy address book, ate my cup noodles, tv is on, nothing much to watch, got cable but only those news channels so not very helpful either. Received one phonecall that is some weird cheena recorded message, so i just hang up. Normally wouldn't log in at work, but i've got 4more hours to go.....so might as well do something.
Couple of nights ago, I again had a damn weird dream. Wanted to blog about it but couldn't find time till now.
I dreamt me and at least 2 others (faceless in the dream, not sure who) were leaving my ex-collg house warming gathering. Instead of taking the lift, we took the stairs instead. As we got nearer to ground level, the look of the flats started to change, from very new, pleasant looking clean flats to dunk and musty, dark looking staircase landings and old old wooden doors. Remember feeling rather un-nerved in the dream so made haste down the stairs.
Finally got to the last series of steps and it ended with a door. When i opened the door, i saw before me a huge room, kinda like below me, in a huge pit sort of. And the best part is, this room is full of pple, it's actually a casino!!! And there were no steps to get down to it, so instead you gotta kinda take a leap and sort of glide weightless over the people's heads and land somewhere near the front glass doors. Then the dream ended or at least that's what i can recall. Haaa...Dam weird.
February 04, 2008
Relief.
M glad the day is over, it was busy and frustrating ....frustratingly busy?.......but at least i feel exonerated. Ming nian hui gen hao, huat ah!.
February 02, 2008
Pissed & mentally pernad pea
it's already almost 1am....i'm still feeling unsettled from my work day, which ended up being really messy and irritating. Made a couple of error judgement calls which landed myself in a rushing and juggling act to handle 2 parties of visitors and got myself involved in a trade issue which really shouldn't have been picked up by me in the 1st place. *grrrrrrrrrr* Maybe i'm just looking for someone to blame (probs collg of course who else n today feel like blaming boss n broker also) or i'm really losing my better sense of judgement n concentration. Maybe it's like what i heard once, you can be good at something that is not right for you. I just need a break from all this crap. It really shouldn't be so complicated n stressful loh. I can't decide if I feel more irritated or maligned, just feel like wah lau dam 'bu zhi de'.
As for bonus, at least i got some, but pardon me for appearing ungrateful for i feel that the 'cost' personally for me is too high. So that's why i don't feel the least bit ecstatic. Haiz.....how to make things better? I think there are pple who, unlike me, are totally stress-free and they are oblivious to the stress/extra load that the pple around them have to bear to compensate for their perpetual ignorance-is-bliss state.
To quote an ex-teacher, i feel abit like i'm 'caught between the devil and the deep blue sea'. Of course, being a diver, i'd choose the deep blue sea. Think it's time for a trip soon. I need to block out this world even for just a little while. Thank goodness for the wkend!
As for bonus, at least i got some, but pardon me for appearing ungrateful for i feel that the 'cost' personally for me is too high. So that's why i don't feel the least bit ecstatic. Haiz.....how to make things better? I think there are pple who, unlike me, are totally stress-free and they are oblivious to the stress/extra load that the pple around them have to bear to compensate for their perpetual ignorance-is-bliss state.
To quote an ex-teacher, i feel abit like i'm 'caught between the devil and the deep blue sea'. Of course, being a diver, i'd choose the deep blue sea. Think it's time for a trip soon. I need to block out this world even for just a little while. Thank goodness for the wkend!
January 31, 2008
shedding round 2
ok now that i got some colour back, i'm peeling again....i think i might've been a snake in a past life...
January 26, 2008
Anything but sedate...
what a roller coaster week at work, as it is, 2 person shouldering 4 persons work was already siong enough, throw in the crazy week the stock markets had this week, it's a real formula for exhaustion. I was working up to my eyeballs trying to keep afloat, even the good news boss had for me ended up to be a rather non-event as i really didn't have time to sit down n digest it. i think he went away thinking that i'm probably not a very appreciative person.
The week was further marred by the re-emergence of an old health problem that is like a stumbling block that drags me down. Just when i think i'm getting better it rears it's ugly head. It's frustrating and I only wish there was a quick fix solution to make it go away for good. I don't think quitting is a solution and the only thing is to try to 'take things easy'. well as we all know that is easier said than done and character wise, I don't think i can do it la, i'm abit more 'im-cheem' and proud to act an idiot at work, i already have to handle my fair share of those dudes.
*yawn*.....i'm just back from my slowest 20 lap swim ever...trying to exercise and soak in some sun while not jacking up the heartrate. I think being under flourescent lighting and facing 4 radiation-emitting screens all day is making me look rather pale and greenish. So today was good, at least i think i got some colour back...
The week was further marred by the re-emergence of an old health problem that is like a stumbling block that drags me down. Just when i think i'm getting better it rears it's ugly head. It's frustrating and I only wish there was a quick fix solution to make it go away for good. I don't think quitting is a solution and the only thing is to try to 'take things easy'. well as we all know that is easier said than done and character wise, I don't think i can do it la, i'm abit more 'im-cheem' and proud to act an idiot at work, i already have to handle my fair share of those dudes.
*yawn*.....i'm just back from my slowest 20 lap swim ever...trying to exercise and soak in some sun while not jacking up the heartrate. I think being under flourescent lighting and facing 4 radiation-emitting screens all day is making me look rather pale and greenish. So today was good, at least i think i got some colour back...
January 20, 2008
Sedate
i've been advised by my doctor to re-evaluate my life and perhaps migrate to australia or new zealand and/or opt for a more sedate/sedantary lifestyle, probably at the cost of lower pay in order to gain better health. I think I'm sedate enough, anymore sedate i'd be six feet under. Besides, I find it hard to envision any job that has zero stress. Think the only way to go about it is to not work at all. For that however, i'd need money, which means i gotta find someway to strike toto/marry well. Either of those options materialising, might actually cause me to have a heart attack, which essentially means a different type of stress, so.....not really solving the problem either ey? =P
January 08, 2008
Slither
I'm shedding. Shedding dry flaky skin. Snakes shed their skin when they outgrow it. Does this mean I'm growing taller? (probably just wider) . I look like I have a bad case of whole body dandruff. Gotta avoid wearing black for awhile. It's 'snowing' at pea's plc but it's nowhere near as cold. haaa...=P
January 04, 2008
happy 2008!
m back from a 3wk vacation to LA. Didn't quite make enough money in vegas thatz why have to come back to this life...haa..
trying to adjust back to the humidity with my nose blocked and fighting jet lag, been staring my computer for the past 2hours while stealing glances at my comfy bed (eyeballs aching from the multi tasking)...but noooo...gotta tahan till tonite.
Tis was a rather chill out (10-15degrees weather) trip with quite abit of shopping n eating thrown in for good measure. I even ambitiously brought my running shoes which i got to use all of ONCE in the 3 weeks..heh...ok ok maybe twice...2nd time coz i used it to go up bear mountain to go tube-bing...quite fun. For the most part the daily most challenging thing i had to do was figure out when to brave the temperature n take a shower. Now that i'm back to a brand new year...gotta start planning things to look fwd to eh? kaleebso? when??????? safari when???? strike lottery when????
Merry xmas n a happy new 2008 everyone. Huat ah! =)
trying to adjust back to the humidity with my nose blocked and fighting jet lag, been staring my computer for the past 2hours while stealing glances at my comfy bed (eyeballs aching from the multi tasking)...but noooo...gotta tahan till tonite.
Tis was a rather chill out (10-15degrees weather) trip with quite abit of shopping n eating thrown in for good measure. I even ambitiously brought my running shoes which i got to use all of ONCE in the 3 weeks..heh...ok ok maybe twice...2nd time coz i used it to go up bear mountain to go tube-bing...quite fun. For the most part the daily most challenging thing i had to do was figure out when to brave the temperature n take a shower. Now that i'm back to a brand new year...gotta start planning things to look fwd to eh? kaleebso? when??????? safari when???? strike lottery when????
Merry xmas n a happy new 2008 everyone. Huat ah! =)
December 11, 2007
Work...pea....over n out...
I'm finally done with work for 2007. However i do not feel elated...on the contrary i feel rather tired (so what's new) and irritated. Had to hang around to wait to meet a dude for kopi n find out that my initial suspicions are correct. Then i had a lousy dinner n couldn't get a cab from the mrt so had to take a bus home....(hike fees somemore la...still doesn't solve problem what)
On another matter, the dream i blogged about turned out to be a topic of amusement for my friends. They even set up a group for it, intent on dramatising the whole issue. Is it really for my benefit (I already told them it's stoopid so just drop it) or for theirs?
I also at some point dreamt of a black lil' labrador puppy which spoke n told me his name is 'chewy', but i don't see them rushing to post ads and go to spca to find this cute pooch. Since hints aren't working, maybe this will. The pea doesn't get angry easily, i'm still not angry, however it now takes v lil' to get on pea's nerves, and this is starting to. Enough said.
On another matter, the dream i blogged about turned out to be a topic of amusement for my friends. They even set up a group for it, intent on dramatising the whole issue. Is it really for my benefit (I already told them it's stoopid so just drop it) or for theirs?
I also at some point dreamt of a black lil' labrador puppy which spoke n told me his name is 'chewy', but i don't see them rushing to post ads and go to spca to find this cute pooch. Since hints aren't working, maybe this will. The pea doesn't get angry easily, i'm still not angry, however it now takes v lil' to get on pea's nerves, and this is starting to. Enough said.
December 10, 2007
Dilbert's world
Dilbert has a knack for hitting the nail on the head sometimes...
"Careers are what vikings and blacksmiths had. Your "career" will be a series of random jobs that are each somewhat less horrible than the one before. Eventually, when you have changed jobs enough times, you will be old".
"If money doesn't buy happiness, you might wonder why the people who are paid the least are always the most disgruntled."
"If you have worked at your company longer than the other people in your department, chances are that you are not one of the "good people"."
hmmmm..... =
"Careers are what vikings and blacksmiths had. Your "career" will be a series of random jobs that are each somewhat less horrible than the one before. Eventually, when you have changed jobs enough times, you will be old".
"If money doesn't buy happiness, you might wonder why the people who are paid the least are always the most disgruntled."
"If you have worked at your company longer than the other people in your department, chances are that you are not one of the "good people"."
hmmmm..... =
December 06, 2007
pin cushion...
Today was yet another super busy day...surprising after 2weeks of relative calm.
boss was in town for meetings n appraisals. Had my round...basically not telling me much except thanks for my support n hope for my continual support. (hope la..hope somemore...no money no talk manz....we shall wait n see)
I was glad i didn't have to be the one who stabbed probs collg in the back...as it turned out....many pple have done it already, the feedback gathered definitely didn't do him much good....so i just needed to nod in agreement and assist in pushing the dagger deeper...mwahahahhaa!!! =P but at least boss was honest n knows what is happening...which is somewhat a lil' relief.
I guess appraisals are just a must do thing where what u put on paper doesn't really make that much of a difference, but at least there's a chance to voice out certain things without it sounding like a threat. Where the fella in charge still tries to draw a seemingly brighter picture with the shades of grey on his palate. ah well....glad that is over and done with....
boss was in town for meetings n appraisals. Had my round...basically not telling me much except thanks for my support n hope for my continual support. (hope la..hope somemore...no money no talk manz....we shall wait n see)
I was glad i didn't have to be the one who stabbed probs collg in the back...as it turned out....many pple have done it already, the feedback gathered definitely didn't do him much good....so i just needed to nod in agreement and assist in pushing the dagger deeper...mwahahahhaa!!! =P but at least boss was honest n knows what is happening...which is somewhat a lil' relief.
I guess appraisals are just a must do thing where what u put on paper doesn't really make that much of a difference, but at least there's a chance to voice out certain things without it sounding like a threat. Where the fella in charge still tries to draw a seemingly brighter picture with the shades of grey on his palate. ah well....glad that is over and done with....
December 04, 2007
i want to go holiday!
what a bizarre n slightly irritating day....I realised that the problem with being remembered for a job well done is that you are also remembered when they've got a problem they need solved...*bleah*...
had 2 ex-bankers who joined another bank call me for help, to teach that side bank dealer what to do...wah lau...dam kok.....talking to the dealer lagi kok....thought he was a junior staff...found out the fella actually abit 'higher' up than that....then lagi bizarre thing? the fella ask to meet up...like huh....whatever...m already in holiday mood...don't really give a damn la...
after settling all that..in the afternoon kena another issue.....a troublesome banker gimme problem again....cannot get his way then quote my name say confirm with me already....kana sai loh..confirm w me..who am i? not his boss to give him approval also what...neh use brain....hiaz...give up....so i left at 5.15pm n headed home la....fark it....just countdown the days to my break...can't wait...
had 2 ex-bankers who joined another bank call me for help, to teach that side bank dealer what to do...wah lau...dam kok.....talking to the dealer lagi kok....thought he was a junior staff...found out the fella actually abit 'higher' up than that....then lagi bizarre thing? the fella ask to meet up...like huh....whatever...m already in holiday mood...don't really give a damn la...
after settling all that..in the afternoon kena another issue.....a troublesome banker gimme problem again....cannot get his way then quote my name say confirm with me already....kana sai loh..confirm w me..who am i? not his boss to give him approval also what...neh use brain....hiaz...give up....so i left at 5.15pm n headed home la....fark it....just countdown the days to my break...can't wait...
November 27, 2007
xiang dang nian.....
This is more for myself than anything else...thought i shld've this archived somewhere in cyberspace history....=P
This picture appeared in the straits times yonks ago.....my aunt spotted it first and called to wake my mum up to go look...
"there's a part for everyone...in this land where we belong...there's a part for one and all...." Those were the days of patriotic propaganda tunes....
flea fly mosquito
last week went by rather peacefully....today....i'm rather annoyed....having to deal with waste time IT problems and pattern chooting probs collg ....didn't feel better even after my gym workout.....not sure if it's the general tiredness...or low glucose levels....couldn't shake off the thorn in the side feeling...gobbled down dinner mostly silently.....in the 10-15mins drive home...when the food had a chance to travel to my tummy and the signal travel to my brain...i felt only minisculy better....hmph....how la like dat?
On another note....looks like one collg will be FLEE-ing the coop soon....which leaves me wishing i could FLY to my holiday sooner and stay away longer....coz when i get back it'll just be me coping with the annoying MOSQUITO of a probs collg...suck blood manz...
On another note....looks like one collg will be FLEE-ing the coop soon....which leaves me wishing i could FLY to my holiday sooner and stay away longer....coz when i get back it'll just be me coping with the annoying MOSQUITO of a probs collg...suck blood manz...
November 22, 2007
Limbo...
I'm feeling damn strange .....cut off from the world ....in a kind of limbo state.....not really feeling much.....thought i'm not that tired..been sleeping early...but on the way home on the mrt...i got a seat a few stations from my stop ...closed my eyes n konked out....so i must still be tired.....parallel universe fren also called me today....to ask if i fell off the face of this earth ....haa...no la...just trying not to fall off my chair...
November 13, 2007
kooo kuuuu....
ok ok..i shan't bitch about work n tbk today...or this week ( i try i try)....
2 nights ago i had a strange dream...i dreamt i held hands w a ok looking dude..this dude kinda resembles this local actor who made the transition from channel 5 to channel 8 ...not say dam hamsom but some say quite tao....think some can guess "TPH"...heh heh...i also rmbr in the dream...i kinda know i am in a dream and thinking to myself..hey his height not too bad....
methinks m losing some of my marbles...
**cue in twilight zone music**
2 nights ago i had a strange dream...i dreamt i held hands w a ok looking dude..this dude kinda resembles this local actor who made the transition from channel 5 to channel 8 ...not say dam hamsom but some say quite tao....think some can guess "TPH"...heh heh...i also rmbr in the dream...i kinda know i am in a dream and thinking to myself..hey his height not too bad....
methinks m losing some of my marbles...
**cue in twilight zone music**
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