Amm chio or TL worthy?

It's been awhile since i blogged, some big guy said must make pea either amm chio or TL then she will blog about it one...

Before i forget, I read an article about facebook allowing search engines like google/yahoo etc to access n find your info. So better go change your privacy settings (article says u hv about 1mth to do it) unless you have an exhibitionist streak, in which case, you might wanna go beautify your site.

The pea has been really busy and hectic at work..only this week has been rather manageable.
I got abit annoyed at my probs collg (ie. collg w some probs la) , I have an issue about how slow motion he answers the phonecalls and how buay zi dong he is sometimes. The nickname given to him behind his back is really apt --tua pek kong(TPK)...sometimes dunno what he doing la..really sit there like TPK loh, like to give instructions somemore. Most of the time i ignore la, esp when he dunno head or tail n chap ji kah. Other than that i guess he's ok la, we keep to ourselves mostly, afterall guess it's just a job n we all working for much the same thing.

Found out this bank is really like what i feared rather stingy when it comes to payout. So really quite sian la....so stress for what right? What to do, some is better than none. Gotta hang in there for now...next yr then see how.

nothing amm-chio-able to blog about...unfortunately...

facebook?

Blogs will be even less updated now that our lil' community has discovered facebook. Most of stuff in there are quite useless actually but can be rather entertaining...so are you on facebook?

hanging tough

wah..dam shack ley...cannot go on like this ....colleagues taking turns to go on leave....think about it already dam siong...i feel physically ill today manz....i think m also too juak plus the added work load today didn't help.......aching all over .....mentally n physically super tired.....
Can't imagine slogging like this till 62yrs old..wait ..now itz 65? cannot la...anybody got any better bright ideas?...

single emo pea

emo pea's gonna bitch again...freaking tough past 2 days man with the markets in free fall mode and one colleague on leave. Running around like a monkey and not getting the peanuts...at the end of friday felt like just sat through intense 8hr exam like dat..brain cramped, eyes strained, neck and back aching like mad....

plus i got a call from the organiser of the palau trip saying that a dec trip looks highly workable. Happy at first until i find out that the catch is i should try to find myself a room mate coz the rest are all even numbered so easier to split cost if they should wanna charter the whole boat. My thinking is what is this big deal about having the whole boat to ourselves?? As it is, a 7confirmed person booking would make us the majority on the boat already, why give ourselves the headache of trying to find the extra 5 pax and esp 2 who are willing to pay alot more for the bigger state room?

Plus my peeve is that if I'm freaking gonna pay like more than 4K to go for this trip, why should I have to bother about finding myself a roomie?? I don't have an issue rooming w another guest what...i just wanna go dive n enjoy myself.... I'm a F.I.T (free independent traveller)...being single my fault is it? (ok itz partly my fault but i neh had to pay a price for it until now and i'm v sore abt the whole thing)

Was just flipping newspapers just now and i don't get it but why do all the new condo developments look the same? it's like they all came out of the same design firm using the same glass and steel materials. If I as a buyer is gonna pay like 1mio or more (wish i have that kind of money now) to buy the place, then it at least better have something special or unique about it. It REALLY all looks the same! and it's beginning to look alot like HK! eeeks...

I'm emo today..everything seems to bug me...the cool weather is the only respite...

ohhhh great..the ktv 'chao-siah' aunty in the opposite house is at it again...she needs her own sound proof box man..so she can actually hear how bad she is...

hanging out...

Went in early to work at the F place on national day knowing that I had alot of trades that need to be handled. Arrived at 7.30am only to find out to my irritation that my staff pass does not allow me entry on public holidays!! and who can i call for help at this time in the morning when it seems like i'm the only one there??...basically woke up at least 3 colleagues trying to get hold of the mobile phone number of the facilities dude whom the security guard said has already arrived n is somewhere in the building (so helpful loh).

Finally managed to get in at 8am. Applied for approval to have my staff pass access extended to 24hrs ( i had to apply loh, like i want to work on wkends loh, doesn't make sense loh)....Was told since i am not required to work night shifts, they only programmed a mon-fri access for me. Wah lau. Think after i sompa that i will not steal the company arowanas and stingrays, they shld grant me the access la. like hellooooo..some common sense here??

Anyway realised that 'maria's job actually quite tiring and time consuming ah...must wash clothes...hang clothes...keep clothes..iron clothes....vacuum floor...mop floor...wah seh...where got time??

At least we all had a gd dinner gathering last evening...shabu shabu + lamb shank + chicky wings (which my neighbourhood stealth feline theives seem to savour) + batalong salad( at least I thot of a balanced diet)....Conversation was interesting and mostly rather loud, ranging from silly property investments...to gay smurfs...electric company...muppets...(it's scary how much some can remember)...weird and problematic frens .....emoteens.....emopea (i still dun get it, i where got emo lah) and my famous american time story was again repeated for the benefit of the uninitiated....

9 years...9 lives?

forgot to invest in toto today, totally slipped my mind. did anyone win the 5.5mio jackpot? website taking too long to load ah. Hope at least some friends won something?

been quite a choboh weekend. very chill...v relaxing...until i started thinking of the work week then not so chill...not so relaxed.

Time really flies...it's 9 yrs since graduation among other things. On the one hand doesn't quite feel like it's been so long, on the other, I sure feel darn jaded. Am I the only one? So much has happened, yet I feel i can't remember alot of stuff. I dunno whether is it the time warp feeling or just a case of aging braincells. Think more of the latter. If we all had a chance to do it all again, would we still make the same choices? I think so. We are the sum of all our choices and experiences....there is of course plenty of room for improvement but I think by and large I am pretty happy with myself =) aren't we all? heh..anyway...
Think I shouldn't ponder so much at this late hour ah, must preserve those greying cells...

Angelic vacation

I think my guardian angel took leave today ah.
I hope she's back with me tomorrow.

Penny for my thots

It's been a crazy week, dad had a minor health scare but thankfully a colon scope showed that all was clear. Now that i've just sent them off to the airport for their 3week French vacation, I actually have the whole place to myself. Can relax? nooooooo....gotta do his work for him while he is away. Talk about O.T. Spent the last few days fussing and briefing. As if the poor pea isn't stressed enough at work, come home still cannot relax. =(

heard ex-alumni boss quit from the B place, woah, kinda changes things for my 2 kaki's who joined him there. Guess it goes to show that nothing is for certain and change really is the only constant. As much as i feel for them, can't help but agree with 11 that it's a blessing in disguise for us that we didn't end up joining.

Today at work, also got near miss, luckily managed to resolve rather quickly. I really think my guardian angel is doing a darn good job. Looking at all things in totality, I am made aware of a more powerful hand directing events/things in my life. Just the other day, I nearly strike starter prize for 4D, miss by 1 digit only. It's as if 'someone' is saying, hey i know what you are wishing for, but am showing you that you still need to work for it and there's no free lunch. Then again, it ain't gonna stop me from investing in thur's 2.8mio toto jackpot la. You'd neh know loh.

Even the old Bali medicine man also said to me :' pls don't lose your job'. So guess i'd still hafta work at it for some time yet. This same cracko dude also says i'll be rich by 40...(wooo hooo!) so I gotta hang on for the ride. He also said:" you are not just a smart girl, you are a VERY smart girl!" Waaahhh..haaa.....=P

A quote I came across this week:" the most efficient energy saving device is a rich husband". hmmm....

Bali magic

There's something magical about bali, the people are friendly, there's no rush, traffic can get quite crazy but nobody loses their cool, even the local pets know how to kick back n take it easy.

This is not a postcard

Alam Asmara Resort, Candidasa, Bali.

Pure bliss.

Really didn't do much this trip, which was the whole idea. I only brought basic snorkel gear true to fata's swordsman theory, and it must be a record coz I only did ONE dive..haa..choppy la..too much effort.

Chilled out at a mountain resort in Ubud, the Nandini resort, very peaceful and quiet, but the negotiating the many steps proved quite a good workout, all 3 of us were complaining of achy calf muscles. In s'pore some pple like to visit condo showflats, while in bali, the king likes to visit 5 star resorts to take pictures and trouble the resort managers to show him the villa rooms and ask tons of questions....by resort number 3 i was rather stoned n restless n lost interest. While cursing the king for his many incurable weird habits, i kena the neng kah attack and fell while going down a flight of stone pebble steps, Alila ubud i think it was, sustained minor (ugly) injuries.

Visited a rather amusing old medicine man, who's diagnosis consisted of reading your face, eyes/ears/nose/mouth - 'you have v gd eyes/ears/nose/mouth, you are v good woman' (when it came to the queen's turn, he said repeated much of the same thing, so here i have my doubts la....also did some palm reading, apparently 'if i want to i can marry 2 times'??!?!! king say i greedy, but was very happy to view and recommend villas which might prove to be suitable honeymoon locations for me next time.

ah well, as always, holidays end too soon and i feel like i need a few more days break to recover from my break but that is not to be, it's back to the grindstone tomorrow. Now i need to sleep.

lights, camera, (no) action!

counting down...1 more work day to go...then i'm off to a self proclaimed well deserved rest/break in bali....

90% packed....just waiting for the king to change his mind about the silly heavy strobe that he made me go out of my way to collect. Methinks it's a set up. not sure who the mastermind is.....my dear KL royal couple frens (who act blur) or a certain dude who is 40 but behaves and likes to hang out with fellas 10yrs his junior....or maybe it's really a coincidence thing? I think not.....
Alas,for all their good intentions and effort, this is a plan that will not bear fruit...try harder next time guys, filter properly 1st..heh...

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update: i found out that all of the above was really really pure coincidence...who knew la..ah well...at least it provided me (and some of my frens) some amusement...

words..only words...

Just the other day read that the word 'ginormous' has made it as a legitimate word in the english dictionary...

Maybe one day soon we'll see words like 'chi-ba-bom' and 'shart' in there as well.
It was also reported in the news that the word 'love' is the most popular and favourite word amongst Singaporeans. (I didn't know that too) well.."cool"....is another..

The buck stops here

The end of yet another really ku ku day. Really don't know what's gotten into me. but i've had enough of this nonsense. the ku-ku-ness stops here. Ming tian huei gen hao!

Ku ku na den

I really feel i need a holiday..... to rest ...to recharge...to relax and take my kiao-kah picture....
Decided to heck it and not wait until aug for holiday, so today book ticket to bali to join king & queen on their trip (i gatecrash but boh chap la..heh). Happily thot ok, settled liao, swee.

On the mrt ride home then realised that the trip falls on the same weekend as port dickson race?! of course i am not competing la but i was supposed to go n give moral support while nuahing. Yikes...very ku ku....the pea seldom makes such mistakes, it's not her nature. She usually has her "marbles" all stored in the right places....so just goes to prove that it is really time for a holiday..the braincells need to reorganise and regroup..... I'm very very sorry to tuah fata...dix...ah ben....coach poon....

hermie

So little time it seems, even on weekends it's a mad rush to get things done.

collect passport (ICA centre bursting at the seems with pple, my queue number: 323..wah seh..took 1.5hrs loh)....go meet fren for kopi....go for massage....go dinner.....go home zzz...

next day...go church...go lunch...go cut hair...by now the massage effects of the previous day is setting in and i guess i'm going thru' the detox phase....while waiting for my hair color to set, i was alternating between falling asleep and watching lil' hermie here go about his daily biz in the salt water tank...

hiaz..darn tired la....aiyoh...hope i wake up fresh(er) tomorrow...

manado?

time seems to pass rather quickly it feels....i was moaning about pending monday..now already end of wed....just ystd celebrated my parallel universe fren's bday by having satisfying dinner at shaslik during which I was informed that i am rather kok since i didn't figure out how to set the date on my watch properly.

After that, I relied on trusty taxi uncle to send me home....during the journey, he asked me to read this police broadcast message on his taxi call booking screen...some big sized guy was out on the loose with one hand still in cuffs...then the taxi uncle say he knows who the dude is!! he is some guy who is a drug addict and hangs arnd in the taxi uncle's neighbourhood and the taxi uncle buys illegal ciggies from this dude for 1/2 the regular price! At this point i also don't know whether to believe or not loh...abit too coincidental right? anyway...i let it slide la, so kaypoh for what right.

On another topic...I think I need to get away and breathe some compressed air again, dunno when will I get the chance...just when the subject crossed my mind, got a msn message asking if I was keen to go manado to dive end Aug...hmmmm..can consider ley...any other takers??? I've only been there once and I told myself it's definitely worth it to go dive lembeh again....itz just the thought of jumping into the cold water that makes me hesitate. I can feel the chill in my bones just thinking about it...

connect the dots looking backwards

back from "alumni" dinner...seems like the few of us still trying to find out footing and get a comfortable stance in our chosen companies....it's not been easy...hope it will all work out for all...

was reading the text of one of Steve Job's speech (http://news-service.stanford.edu/news/2005/june15/jobs-061505.html)
In it he spoke about connecting the dots looking backwards...i think i can relate....i couldn't see back then....where my haphazard work experience would lead me...but now i guess the time i clocked in the other companies really did help me to 'pick up' faster at this new dept....it sure is darn hectic but at least the learning curve ain't too steep.....hopefully i'll handle the intensity well as i gain experience...

even landing the transfer to this dept was quite a challenge, but now looking back...some stuff had to not work out in order for other stuff to...and a series of small events that included frustrating news & interesting yet vital coincidences so minute it was barely a whisper that could easily have been missed......so it all falls into place and works out in the end....

Contrary to what my dear fren sms me today, i do not think God is on vacation...i think we just can't see his plan until it is unfurled before us....so take heart....keep the faith....and rmbr "all good things!"

hot dog

last nite i had a dream...and i seldom dream...or rather i mostly don't remember even if i do.
Could be that i'm waking up much earlier these days...before sunrise....so that's why can recall parts of the dream...
in my dream...i was patting the head of a pooch.....that one minute look like beemer(goldie)...next minute look like scout(brown & white border collie)...duh..confusing..haa

then ...cut over to another scene, i had my arm around a cute guy with a hot bod...?
then then then...
then i woke up......
so hor..tomorrow i set my alarm clock 5mins earlier...maybe can recall more if i do dream again......or maybe i'll just go have a hot dog...*sigh*

ohmmmmm

been a long hectic week...1st week officially at the new dept....wah siong! think this is the 1st time i start new job don't have 'honeymoon' period one. Really gotta hit the ground running...or rather sprinting....so by the time friday came around i was already dam chuan. Somemore was left alone for a short period (think only 25mins or so but felt like an eternity) one day and i nearly died juggling 3 phones and 2 bloomberg terminals.......... So looked forward to the weekend break. As usual it comes arnd and goes way too quickly...sun is coming to an end...monday will be dawning soon...and the madness is gonna start again!

*suck in deep breath*

Bottled apology

2nd time...booking screwed up again....told me 'they were not informed of my arrival but will let me check in anyways"...like hellllooo? doing me a big favor is it?.......the pea lost her zen quite awhile ago with this so called 'top svc aptm chain'.....told the charboh off that this is the 2nd time they've screwd things up for me. At the very least they 'zhi chuo neng gai', i returned to the room to find a bottled apology...altho' i don't drink, itz still a nice touch, quench the hell fires abit.

Last week thur was HK holiday, of course i didn't have to go in to work right? wrong again.....i found out this week that the CB si ang moh actually complained that i shld've come in to work since my flight was only in the afternoon. Hear already dam buay soong loh. I really think my 'yuan' does not lie with this dept....let's hope things pick up at the new dept....if it doesn't, my resignation letter is typed and ever ready...just need to change the date only lor.....afterall it's just a job, they don't own me, and when things get too ridiculous, just hv to say adios amigos.....wish me luck my friends....maybe i should read some 'hong chui' books also, haa...

shama again!??!

Just when i thought, ahhh..finally back home...can try to eat abit of snake for the last week of work in this present dept...it's been a hectic week, could do with some down time..... I got a call on fri evening at 7pm to ask me to go over to HK again next week! DAMN!

Last week in HK, it was a holiday on thur so i earned one day off...but this coming week, thur is a holiday in S'pore but NOT in HK, so i gotta pay back that one day....nabei...i can't win with this company la...itz v annoying...

I don't know which is worse, the thought of having to work on a s'pre holiday or the thought of having to check in to that damn screwed up place again....u know what? i think the latter takes the cake.

I really hope that book lao pa was reading is true...june 6th is the date to look fwd to...for after that date....all ye dragons will hv a fantastic time!

The recent case of sudden death reported in the papers, of a 29yr old guy who is rather well known in the local music industry is v sad. Turns out my folks play golf with his folks n they are rather good friends, so i think it's rather close to home in a way. Mum was tellg me about it when they fetched me from the airport, the boy was working very hard on a upcoming project and was very stressed out, can imagine family's pain n loss, and all i can think of is that life is so precious n fragile, somethings are just not worth it... so guess have to live a balanced life...and learn when to say enough is enough so f off...haa..

KNNBCCB shama

my hk trip has not been smooth thus far.
sequence of events:

day1
- 5min trip to changi airport, very smooth, when i got out of the car, i realised i was leaving a trail of white rubber. My arseluck in choosing a pair of shoes that i hv not worn in over 2yrs and no checking the base which was basically too brittle.
So after check in gotta go buy charles & keith sandal, quite kok.

-flight to HK, rather smooth, in my clumsiness i accidentally flicked some butter onto someone's laptop, lucky he busy eating neh see, i also heng my reflexes quite fast, hurry up wipe off and pretend nothing happen,continue eating....

-reach HK, customs queue, taxi queue all dam long, took me almost 2hrs to reach service aptm. While waiting got a call from s'pore office secretary saying that the stoopid farking hotel pple went to email my office and cc my farking big boss in hk that 2 of my friends hv checked in and are staying with me. All i blardi told them to do was to allow them to put luggage in the room 1st. Imagine how bad this looks. fucking upset for the rest of the day, cldn't even eat dinner properly, kept thinking wat the hell gonna happen 2mr.

day2
-got up dam early coz basically didn't sleep all that well, got ready, took a cab to work.
old groucy taxi driver didn't understand me and i had to call my collg for help in translation.
- thankfully big farking boss was in big farking london, so i didn't have to deal with it face to face, just dropped him an email and all was clear. think it was just blew way out of proportion la...
-Cursing at the shama svc aptm pple was v apt, don't believe 'top' chains handle things like dat loh, they cld've at least had the decency to wait for me to arrive to clarify things.
-had some gd company for dinner with hilarious thai stand up comedy act by pegs...
-chilling out at her plc as i make use of lao pa's laptop n peg's broadband connection.

1more work day to go then hopefully will have enough time for some shopping ..

what can i say...i do not like HK...=(

Ah Di ah!

A normal lazy saturday, nuah until hungry so walk to the outside kopitiam to buy lunch.

5min walk out...5min walk back...no need to dress up for sure.

Q up to buy 'teh peng' to quench the afternoon thirst, the drinks' stall auntie in her fervour to serve fast fast..barely glanced at me and asked 'ah di yao she mer'?

I pretend neh hear the 1st part of the question and gave her my order while looking at her straight in the eye. think she felt bad la after she look properly....ha...i was more amused than insulted. Got me thinking on my 5min walk home...was it my short hair? was it my happening army print bermudas? I think it's time for a change...i think i need to grow my hair out long...=P

where's the justice?

Just when i think i've accepted things and am more or less at peace w the situation and am moving forward.
I find out by chance that the irritating bugger has told yet another person that his bonus has hit 6figures. Don't these pple ever learn the meaning of the word 'humble' or that you can't 'buy' friends? or that respect is not earned n measured by how great u r trying to tell pple u r?
Worse still, where's the fucking justice if the HR can give him so much, and deny me my measely peanut dust for last yr????? Ni nabu la.
Neh mind, can only tell myself that only good things will come to me and my friends...
I am told today that i need to 'do them a favour' n fly myself to HK to do handover to a new fella. Such is the kok-ness of this plc, sign n charge away i shall, since it sure ain't going into my pocket na?

P's vision software upgrade successful!

I can see! It's rather amazing really, quite scary too, can see everythg that is happening. The aftermath with the plastic cups look quite kok..but 'an quan di yi, an quan di yi'.

Bottles of Solo care solution and unused focus dailies (500 degrees) to give away..anybody?? heh

debrief

realised a coupla things over last week.

1) boys can and probably are more sampat n gossipy than girls. the only difference is, they can gossip and shoot very succint questions at the subject of the gossip who is present in their midst.
girls generally will give face and only gossip behind the subject's back.

2) Mary's food still lives up to standards, and I feel hungry just thinking about the goreng pisangs and ngoh hiang rolls...yum...

3) Met up with a fren i haven't caught up with for awhile and she passed me 'the secret'...good reminder of all the stuff that I know and should be using but have lost sight of along the way.

4) Take home quote from Spidey 3 :"For all the things that life throws at us, there's always a choice".

5) If all else fails, when i grow old and wrinkled, I have a couple who will gladly totter around and watch tv with me (esp porn channels 304-309?) and laugh at the subtitles until our false teeth drop out. It's part sad...part reassuring ...don't know how else to describe it man...

go away!

back from trip...still in denial...can the real world go away for longer please?

(pic stolen from dix's collection) ...island kitty sure knows how to let it all go, shut the world out, don't listen to a dam thang...

Shackaroo

Shackadoobeedoo!! yes i am.
Was looking fwd to annual kaleebso...now m so tired i am just glad to go away for a couple of days...the promise of gd food, gd fun, gd diving? sure helps..

*yawn* *stretch* *sigh*

msia boleh!

only in msia, this is what i call 'creating employment', imagine how many enforcement officers they need to employ to 'catch & scold people'.

tired tired....need a good laugh.....need a long break....need not to work...*bleah*

Hard day's work

oh...it's been a long n testy week...nothing like some good ole' exercise to release the pent up frustration and get my mind off things by tiring myself out.

If I were a cat...I probably look like this...the 'pose' says it all...shack out manz!!!....life is good for this cat it seems...taking a catnap next to the aromatic vapours of changi village's famous nasi lemak stall...it must be in kitty heaven...

Feeling slightly more hopeful now that i've had the weekend to ponder things through, pray for me my friends...we all could do with a lil' divine help.

storm before the calm?

Looking out of my office window, the color of the sky matches my mood for the last few days...cloudy, black and potentially stormy...told off a collg who i got dam irritated with.

to his question asking me for lunch so he can try to pry more info, my response was

:" I think i hv gd reason not to be in the best of moods right now, and to be honest with you that I'd rather not sit there and NOT answer your questions, so i'd pass on lunch if u can understand why."

not very fierce la (since when i ever scold pple) but i think i got the message across....

i can only grin and bear it and act like everything's fine and dandy...which by me is darn hard to do....at this age, i am even thinking of playing truant(coz i never did much of it back in school days)...it's pathetic...and it just goes to show the level of resentment in my lil' heart...

to be or not to be....

current plc Pluses:
Mostly boh zeng hu, no one hounds me for stuff or breathes down my neck
better rewards coz it's supposed to be a front trading position
I'm getting used to the nature of the job n the systems involved

current plc Minuses:
boring environment
Uncertain future
Annoyance at mgmt for dragging feet abt impt stuff (my money!!!)
Annoyance at myself for kena bluff coz i didn't clarify when i joined
Annoyance at doing work that is not reflected by my position
Annoyance at silly magic mushroom muffins eating counterparts who make my job harder
Annoyance at the lack of direction
Annoyance at the blurring of lines
General annoyance la!
Staring at 4screens not doing my eyesight any good...
Incongruency ...that's the word...i can't describe it anyway else....i feel like it ain't really what i shld be doing ( i shld be tai tai enjoying in bahamas on toto winnings..hee)

new plc pluses
'perceived' better environment...coz already know the pple and culture
So will largely still be a boh si mi zeng hu style...
if they can give me more moolah..of course betta la
i think at most 2 screens only.

new plc minuses
step back into that area then forget abt moving front again, right now not sure what i prefer
no chance of getting big big bonus
potentially long hours
certainty of me complaining abt stuff after settling in if i choose to go...just gimme a mth or two..

there is no one perfect solution...but there are always choices to be made...so what will it be
there are experiments done that proof that given 5secs or 5mins or 5days...we'll still come back to the same gut feeling instant decision...
i shall keep an open mind n go find out more 1st then say...

as wide as u can.....

had my lasik eye checkup yesterday....
throughout the examination, they keep telling me to 'open your eyes as wide as you can...wider..more...wider..."
after a few attempts you'd think that they will realise that it is not the case where I am not coorperating but rather i simply cannot.
I have lazy eye and lazy eyelid syndrome...it's "consistent" if u know what i mean =P ...plus modern ang moh equipment is not really tailored for slitty asian eyes...i had to resort to holding my eyelid up with my lil' index finger.
so it's set.....gonna do it next month...hope all goes well...

what do u make of this

i've been told that by reading someone's blog, you get a sense of that person.
Of what is said and unsaid, read between the lines, is this person proud? happy? cynical? ashamed? hiding behind a mask? a zi lian kuang? slightly deranged? simple? complicated?

or like me just plain ol' in need of a super long long holiday ...should do the take three weeks off back to back thing i did 2yrs ago...or even better take a even longer break when i strike toto? Ah...in life all we need is hope!

with that in mind i was thinkg about my friends' masterpieces....one runs like there's no 2mr...another posts pic of himself for himself to look at(did i mention zi lian kuang?)......one sits on the royal throne in the bathroom and comes up with philosophical stuff...one takes pictures of pretty flowers and gives thanks to her ex-bf among other things....one likes to wax lyrical on all things political......one complains abt life and love and work and not striking toto....well that's just what they write about...but who are they really? gotta read betw the lines....and i'm glad i've got this varied assortment of kakis...makes my life more interesting too...

so pray tell...what do you read from here? heh..=P

broken

what happens when I leave the window open and go out?

the wind blows strongly when it rains or the little birdies outside decide to hop in for a snook around?

i come home to discover that it's broken =(

i've had it with me for almost 10yrs...now all shattered in bits and pieces on the floor...it's not spectacularly beautiful but it was a nice & sweet gift.... now it's place is in the bin...irrepairable....irreplaceable...lost...gone....

windows to the soul?

It's been a long work week...getting more n more tired as each day passes.
Not looking fwd to the next 2 wks...feel a headache coming on just thinking about it...shackadoodoo...

Made an apptm to go for lasik evaluation, see if i'm suitable or not...i suspect my degree not stable enough and the nature of my work my not help either...friends tell me might lose contrast...lasik effects may not be permanent (esp. if continue staring at 4screens daily) ...then there are those who've done it and say it's so liberating, best thing they've done, such a joy to throw all the contact lens/solutions/specs away..........we'll see how it goes...undecided as yet.....test already then say........can get 5days mc wor!! .....isn't sad when the prospect of getting mc to rest sounds good? hiaz...

thank god for the wkend again...if only sat/sun lasts longer....

Good read..

Just finished chapter 1, 35pages out of a very thick 933 pages novel and am liking it already. It's promising to be one of those darn good reads we come across once in a long long time...
It's been awhile since i've been so entertained. wish i can hole up in some remote resort for 3days and read it straight through.

i thought this was quite well put:

The past reflects eternally between two mirrors - the bright mirror of words and deeds, and the dark one, full of things we didn't do or say.

a rather long rant...

coupla things got me thinking this wkend...

a fren asked me a v succinct question
Q:" what do you do best?"
A:" er..'nothing?' ha!"
Q:" which other industry would your skills be easily transferable to?"
A:" ***blank*** :-
it didn't help that my nagging headache wldn't go away and i actually started to feel abit nauseous after awhile....didn't wana do a merlion so thot better go home swallow panadol and lie down for awhile...heh...felt much better after an hour or so.

am almost thru with a dalai lama book "the art of happiness at work"....well i wldn't say it gave much insight, more of reinforcement of what i already knew deep down inside...

maybe i'd b more satisfied working as a vet's assistant for 1/3 my current pay? anybody know any generous/kind hearted vets who will let me muck arnd and learn the ropes even tho' i ain't got the requisite papers? maybe i'll hang in my job for a year and do this totally different thing as a break...maybe i can do it on my wkends even now? hmm..

maybe i'd feel better if i got lasik done and i can actually see better and not constantly have this focusing problem (4 screens at work sure doesn't help with stabilising myopia)..it's starting to get to me.

maybe i'd have more fun if i had a doggie which i can name mugly (as in the laughing dog in the hanna babara cartoon)...but itz really too much work, so maybe i'll just play with other people's pets and pretend m the happy owner for the day. maybe i shld get myself a rich guy to pay for all my whims and fancies..heh..ya right...=P

sun nite, the end of the weekend, i rested well (tho' i feel i can rest somemore) , i got marinated and it felt ooh sooo gd (i should do this everyweek)
feeling rather hopeful ... in the grand scheme of things, i have it quite gd...
altho' m rather certain this feeling will fade come a few hrs into monday ...*bleah*...

Paris Je Taime

just watched this rather interesting show, a collection of poignant stories of sorts.
there were...
le mime, le femme mime, le son with the oversized bag/specs, le vampire, le frodo, le cool dude who doesn't speak french, le funny chubby americano postlady, le oscar wilde...

~le pea~

magic muffins?

smoking too much magic mushrooms make your brains turn to mush...how i know? coz i have to work with some of these idiots...it figures if you can have magic mushroom muffins easily in the country, most of the kids would grow up abit 'off'...and not all muffins r created equal, so some are definitely more 'off' then others...

~ yet another random nonsensical bitching session by pea ~

wanted to blog this on clubnarc but somehow doesn't work .... so unfrenly...=(

no sign of labour..

walking down busy orchard road on a saturday.....2 dudes walking along...nothing unusual about it...look closely at the words on the white t-shirt.

Unless my sekolah has upped the age limit and introduced foreign talents to their 'vjc tennis' squad, I think this dude has taken recycling to another level...unless i 'wo huei' and this fella is actually the coach? hmm..could b oso hor?

Free

I applaude my enterpreneur fren, jia you jia you, you will succeed big big!

Luck and fortune favours the brave and well prepared.
I think can be rather brave, but currently I don't have a plan and hence am not prepared.

The restlessness is growing, the tu-lan-ness was probably written all over my face the past 2days prompting my collg to ask me:"ey, if u hv other plans, must tell me ok? don't quietly quietly ah..."
You can imagine my regret when i reply :"boh la, si mi plan, boh plan (yet) la"
How i wish my answer was different.

Corrinne may resonates with her tune:
" I can be free
I can be free from this place
Beautiful healer
Beautiful grace
Help me to see
Everything fall into place (<---very very impt siah)
Wake me from dreaming
No more deceiving
Break these chains " (<-- !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)

In another tune she pleads:
"I promise you
The answer will come
Hold on to patience
And watch for the signs (<-- my eyes n ears n heart r wide open)
Everything in it's time
Everything in it's time"

here chewy boy...heel!

Last nite i had a vivid dream ( i seldom dream)...too bad it wasn't 4 numbers...
i dreamt I had a cute lil' black retriever puppy...who in a very strange scooby-doo kind of cartoon way told me his name was 'chewy', and in my dream, i was quite glad to bring lil' chewy for a stroll arnd the neighbourhood...

am i going nuts?

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i tink blogspot getting overcrowded..my posts take more than 24hrs to appear..

Pea doing the superman pose

video courtesy of uncle tan...who on hindsight should have looked to his right ...he might have seen the manta (which eluded all of us, so we fight current for nothing) that played with his bubbles and only the DM saw lor...

check out the speed of my bubbles manz....just slightly lose to maratua only....
actually i thot he was taking picture, as i was busy looking all arnd me, happen to turn to his direction and pose somemore..haa

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mYnv-7VeiwE

sotong cuttlefish & lighted asses

oh ya...our dive boat crew jumped in the water and used his bare arms to scoop this ill-fated cuttlefish....was on the surface and king treng spotted it...think it became the boatcrew's dinner...it's the size of the pail lor...

we also went to see fireflies (ok ok quite sua ku) but did i didn't realise that on closer inspection, the lil' insects look like like mini ca-chuak's with lighted ass...quite interesting...no pictures tho' as they are quite camera shy...tho' the whole bunch of them on a tree was a delightful sight...maybe thatz where the concept of christmas tree lights came about?

Private Performer P?

Your Blogging Type Is the Private Performer

Your blog is your stage - with your visitors your adoring fans.At least, that's how you write with your witty one liners.And while you like attention, you value your privacy.You're likely to have an anonymous blog - or turn off comments.

What's" Your Blogging Personality?

aye aye red eye...

Today at cityhall mrt ...quite drama...got this uncle who was feeling unwell and sweating profusely and could hardly stand properly...some commuters helped support him and led him to sit down, i went to get station ctrl staff but someone already told them and they rushed to his aid. Not sure what happened next guess they'd probably call an ambulance, hope the guy is alright. I jumped on the next train for my long journey home.

my eyes are smarting from all the screen staring the past 4days at work...and i hv broken capillaries in my left eye coz i rubbed too hard one zonked out night...so look literally quite blood shot and shack....

sooo glad it's the weekend.....it's been a long week...from nearly missing our flight in philippines on sun (we made it amazing race style) to long hours grudgingly hitting the daily grind....

my grainy whaleshark video

watch n listen carefully and u can hear the heavy breathing that accompanies the shooting of the video, and you will get a sense of how 'siong' and 'chuan' it is to swim after the gentle beast.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=K_F-vi7ri3I

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PsTwMEI_MA0

(Dunno why the video embedding got probs, doesn't work...hmm...too tired to figure out now...settle later)

work in progress

packing in progress...many many things to bring...1/2 pack...1/2 watch drama on tv...still got time to blog...multi tasker i am...

m going diving!...yay...hope it'll be good....hope we'll get to see what we are travelling so far to see.....hope the king won't be too noisy (the fella disrupted my blissful sleep at 10am..to ask me silly questions) *hiaz*

V-day...

Ze end of valentine's day...no flowers...no hot hamsom sexy lover... =(

neh mind ....ming tian(or nian?) huei geng hao...ha

but dating agency fren got offer to intro guy to me *roll pea sized eyeballs* doesn't she ever learn?

watched funny jack neo show...anyone who ever worked in a corporate environment will b able to relate, actually reminded me of a certain cover ca-ching dept at my ex-bank..

i particularly like the hokkien sprouting macdonald auntie and the translator for the tang kee...sibeh geh gian...

looking fwd to holiday...even my folks also beat me to it...no more ai xin dinners for next few days...but got 'duty' to do at home.

got fren jio go learn akido...i shall tink abt it abit...as usual my nuahness is dam powderful one...takes quite alot of overcome it...not that i'm trying...

The Daily Grind

The Daily Grind = a nice aromatic cup of kopi

The Daily Grind also = Dragging myself thru a numbing day at work.

So far everyday I need my cup of daily grind to get me thru' the daily grind.

Didn't used to depend on kopi, but now functioning on caffiene from mondays to fridays.

For weekends tho', surprisingly no need, like now, enjoying my cup of caffeine free vanilla honey camomile drink. relax relax shiok shiok...

Can also see i obviously quite boh-liao, but then again my frenz say must have picture, then more interesting..

dollars & sense

today happen to take mrt home w a few colleagues from other dept...some of them got their bonus letter....apparently all comes w minor pay adjustments...

earlier last week, boss told me when they discussed bonus payout i wasn't confirmed yet so i wasn't allocated any, but he's fighting for me...(wat the f**k?) , c'mon la 3mths out of a year as a permanent staff and u dun have my name on the list??? si mi wa ko sai meaning? I know who the stingy poker is...fatso in HK....somemore heard that my division got pay freeze this yr....lagi sai! what logic....

after hearing some news hear n there, m beginning to think that the pple making decisions here ah...oso function like the screwed up mgmt at the alumni...if i they dun pay out this time, it'll be worse next yr....hired a few more big-pay-cheque-all talk-but cannot work fatsos who being hungry big fatsos will eat up major share of MY pie!! >=( this deal ain't wat i signed up for!

my grandpapa(may he rest in peace) used to say in hokkien "zhap ey bui ey wu gao ey gong eh"....after seeing the new guy (not)work, i tink he's confirm one of the 9 out of 10...haa....
Don't worry fata, u r not one of them..heh...

ze lil pea's prospects doesn't look v good at the moment...could b the lack of light at this midnite hr....i tink m in a tunnel going somewhere, but i m not sure coz i can't see shit...

so in the meantime, m hoping...n praying...n wishing...

sunday musings...

time: sunday, 2.15pm
location: home
activity: nuah
company: tv n laptop.

i love wkends, i enjoy the downtime, i really shld do some exericse, but itz too much work so guess i'll do it 2mr. ahhh...why must wkends only b 2 days...so fast jan drawing to a close....

i am happy for my chin-dian fren who just got hitched, i heard he's been wanting to settle down for v long liao...at the dinner i realised why my dating agency fren is 'happy, just happy' as her msn tagline says.....i also am v glad for another dive kaki that she looks postively more radiant and happier ....i must visit her hair dresser....seems like that is the key =P

later go hsewarming gathering...so nice to have your own aptm...now the prices high like siow...can only beo and lau nuah...

Piggy...

Ahh...i feel betta, nothing like the wkend, some downtime to get me there.

watched Babel, the director took 2hr 20min to tell a story, of which my fren and I didnt' really get...=P tho' she insisted itz still alot betta than Borat.

then yummy dinner at Sun & Moon, i ordered the cha soba and honey pork ribs (ooooh sooo goood) that comes w a layer of melt-in-your-mouth fats!(ah ben sure like one) Well, i usually dun eat fats 'neat' but this is dam good! and like they say au'naturale is betta than transfat! heh. ok my photography skills need much improvement but u get the picture.

checked my mail n i'm going bali for a wedding in May and the rooms r paid for! woo hoo! steady la! another trip to look fwd to despite the fact i'm usually not v big on weddings..but hey if i get a holiday w it why the heck not...maybe i shld book the spa in advance..heh...

ok...another 1/2 of a sunday to enjoy before itz dreaded monday again...off to the pool pea goes...

life shld b more than this...

this week so far so good..considering la.......day in day out........clock in clock out......abit restless maciam everyday waiting for somethg wonderful n unusual to happen...would love to make things happen if i knew what 1st la...dun hv a clue...thot maybe go buy toto but the q dam long so didn't wana wait.

there must b more to life than this...but i currently dunno what n dunno how... =
how to make it an extraordinary life? sometimes i think it won't matter coz i'll be gone someday...but it must at least mean somethg ey?

In the absence of a grand master plan for myself, i can only look forward myopically to trips for the year...
CNY donsol, oh pls let it be good...
May day kaleebso food fest...
Aug - bonjour paris? maybe maybe..
Dec - oh pls can i be on holiday somewhr nice on my bday..that will b the bestest.

rain rain go away...

Tis a rainy sat.....pissing rain...the kind that won't stop until dunno when.
suppose to go blading...plans change in favour of hanging out in town for makan n kopi...then plans change again coz pea would rather nuah n not fight the rain to go out of ulu home without the comfort of a vehicle.

met my ex-bank alumni for dinner...
cow's eager to move on to new experiences n learning...
33's quite miserable at her current plc after only 1 week...
mama look like lost weight n quite tired...
11's missing in action coz stuck at work on a fri nite...so must b feeling rather cham and LL oso...
miss W & miss V the only few left with valid memberships at the jap club...trying to confuse the poor waiter who look like he might concuss anytime...

me...feeling rather numb with work...glad that a very horrible 2wks r over for me...by right next week can relak jack n slack abit...coz i boh zeng-huu again...but then kena bomb....gotta show this MBA graduate intern what we do (indian dude from angmoh country..i tink london ah..not sure next wk then ask him)
So how? blind leading the blind loh...i only there 3mths...can't exactly teach him much right...so maybe i smoke him abit here n there then ask him go fly kite n dun disturb.

oh...wat can i do if i don't work in a bank?...=(
i need some inspiration...i need a sign....i need a million bucks from toto....

tour de singapura

round the island in 14hrs...starting at 6am (walau last time go sekolah then wake up so darn early siah)
home -> airport -> bukit timah -> clementi -> cheena town -> orchard -> parkway -> katong -> siglap -> home sweet home.... i tink i know how eugene feels to be stuck w chy for whole day...(aiyoh...shack ley) =P

along the way drop in and visit my friend and her 2 'daughters'...see how much she has grown...n she aint' done yet...

Pea Kiao Kah...Again...

Today I did dam alot of cleaning...
i vacuumed and bathed natalie (itz a car) chy u r buying me brekkie...
i tidied and packed my wardrobe
i cleared a corner of my room (more to go, amazing the junk we collect over the years)
i wiped and wiped a whole lot of dust off my table and shelf tops (Itz amazing the amt of dust collected over a few mths...or maybe it has been more than a yr? =P)
i changed and washed the curtains...
so after a long hard day, there's nothing like putting up my tired feet and zone out in front of the idiot box and wait for my well earned dinner....ahhhhh

I waited from 7pm till 9.15pm before dinner arrived, by then i didn't quite dare get up on my feet coz might just peng san la!

2007 day numero uno.

New year already...so fast...


gathering w family & frenz and 2 smell-durian-will-salivate-&-go-crazy terriers.

gd healthy start to the new yr...blading....
my polar tells me i burnt 800+ calories.. wah...dunno zhun or not...jog usually dam chuan only burn 300+...blading less effort...burn so much meh? do not underestimate butt n leg muscles..

Tis' was quite a nice new yr eve countdown gathering ...altho' not v familar w many of them...ah boy was wasted n puked and went arnd hugging everyone and kissed me on my cheek coz some dude dared her...and she had to prove her point....eeee....wine breath =P LY got proposed to and will be getting married.

Listened in on interesting conversation involving religion, philosophy, aliens, astrology, the great pyramids, the mysterious undiscovered possiblities of the mind, and oh ya....to live longer must wear lacy underwear! haaa....go figure. =O

counting down to 2007...

It's been a rather taxing end to 2006...

busy like mad when it's supposed to be yr end relak mode for most pple
in the midst of the busyness taiwan earth quake damages cables and us who are reliable on bloomberg kena stuck. The service was finally restored at 6pm on thur...which meant me staying at work till 9.30pm..wah lau..the pea is not used to doing overtime loh...not gd for the mental state...

A visit to my doc confirmed my fears...i gotta be back on meds again ...dam shit...just when i thot i was in the all clear...guess unless i go hole up for months in a moutain or beach resort and like eat organic , drink mountain water....and meditate for hrs a day.....i think i gotta take meds for awhile la...hiaz...

i actually signed up for gym but ended up wasting much of the initial month membership...so far only managed to go for one class...and mostly just laugh at the teacher coz i cannot balance in those funny yoga poses....somemore now aching from the effort...kns

wasted my time this week taking yet another silly futures test..i didn't clear it la..what they ask is not what they have in the book loh.....guess not much future for me .... :
i think i don't take failure v well ah...feel quite shitty...machiam suddenly not as shmart as i thot i was....duhhhh...

fren of mine set up a dating agency...personally i dun believe in paying money to meet pple but i do wish them well in their biz...so if anyone interested can visit www.thedatingloft.com. Just say pea refer one...maybe got discount (actualy i not sure..anyhow say one..haa)

ah well...hope 2007 will b a much brighter year....looking fwd to somemore trips..

budding picassos...

This xmas i got a picture of a scary looking guy bringing flowers to me (hope next yr got real one..but want hamsom one...haa)

And i sat still for a couple of minutes for pea's caricature to be drawn (personally i tink oso look quite scary!)

rainy xmas season

This xmas..really no xmas mood ley...end of yr rainy season....cool...dark...wet...moody weather...

stuff learnt from a young cousin:
"Jingle bells ...jingle bells... batman smells..."

apparently got full lyrics to this...according to some who r comics fans...

I donch get it.

Last fri was at MOS. must say the place rather large la. But besides the retro sounds of studio 54 the rest of the music I dun get. >=| (think must b the age factor..haa)....and there were largely loads of pple hanging round alternating between trying to look cool and looking largely bored....so why bother going there in the 1st place? i dun get it.

The hen was a very high and happy and sporting bride. She gladly did the dares while wearing a veiled hairband. Dares consisted of:

1. Get two guys to give you a kiss on each side of your cheek.
2. Get a guy to bare his bottom for you.
3. Get a guy to do a body shot off you.
4. Do a body shot off a guy.
5. Get a guy(s) to give you 2 of his unused condoms (must be of different brands
or type if it is of the same brand).
6. Find a bald guy and pole dance around him.
7. Get a guy aged between 20-25yrs to buy you a drink.
8. Find a guy with body tattoo and get him to take off his shirt to show you.

She surprised all of us by doing ALL the dares without any problem. Guess being pretty and high (pretty high?) helped as the guyz were pretty game when approached.

The thing is........she's getting married right? so we r all happy for her la....but as the bride why the hell do u hafta kena tekan-ed? V fun meh? I donch get this either.

more weddings...

today euroline/chygene got hitched...1st time i see my fren act demure in a super tight cheongsum dress (so matching w the pink/white color angpow i
"kuup" from ex-bank that i gave her for gd luck..haa)...she had to coz cldn't actually move/talk/eat much in it.....hope they enjoy a well deserved holiday in LA. Of all countless weddings i've attended this must've been one of the most chop chop ones.

soooo glad to b home b4 the sun set today, had time to actually get some rest. The cold virus is not leaving me quite alone yet tho. Feeling abit woozy now actually, not sure if itz the walking arnd in circles in Ikea/thot of having 2more days of work/lookg at the 2 books on my table n disgustingly reminding myself i gotta study it to take yet more tests....*bleh*...just wanna get it over n done w b4 the year is up.

in this condition, i want nothing more then to head home n konk out manz...but got another fren having some hen nite thingy on fri...*hiaz* ...the good thing is the organisers decided not to order the 2 bottles of liquor liao, having realised that some of us (crystal or no crystal) are hopeless at drinking and so wld be appalled to have to pay that much for stuff we dun care to drink...hee.

3 decades and counting

hit the three-ooh and crossed over to the darker side. ha.
doesn't feel like a big deal as some make it out to be.

what happens the 1st week at work after turning 30? the pea falls sick...
must the the 'sa-liap-liew-lian-hooot" that did me in....jeez and it wasn't any good anyways...nabei...not quite worth it....

i shld sleep...but i tink i shall go drink barley and watch dvd...
then again maybe not...maybe shld really go sleep...m aching all over...must b the age...*hiaz*

Groovy baby....

looks like some pple haven't lost their mojo...haha...
this is the dude i report to...v different from his more serious 'look' at work.

hot pea...needs a holiday...

You know how when you meet some pple, there are sparks. Well today...i met that someone....unfortunately, i didn't in my wildest dreams expect the guy to be in his 60s =O

M refering to the qigong master again..haa....he held my neck n my fren literally saw a bright spark!....I didn't know i was sooooo "HOT"......loh..hahahaha.
Apparently i dun drink enuff H2O and my skin's way to dry. I am still feeling some of the prickly static now just thinking abt it. =|

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talking to PY on msn and I am just reminded of a fabulous diving holiday not too many yrs ago...sangalaki it was...chilling out on the seabed...watching the mantas majestic in flight...cock fren singing bday song to me underwater thru' regulator...which is quite amazing la..he is noisy even underwater...I told myself then that i shld spent every bday if possible on a holiday....sigh...looks like gonna have to take a raincheck this yr. Ming nian huei gen hao! =)

Ribena ....ouch!

This wkend i learnt that i was actually quite silly to stick a straw into the ribena drink pack. Itz actually a cleverly designed pack where u can actually pour, squeeze or suck the drink out. Bet I ain't the only one who didn't know that. Duh...

I also learnt that my back was abit out of alignment. After treating my aching shoulders, the qigong master 'cracked' me back into alignment. I didn't know my bones could make so much noise loh. Almost a symphony going on in there...
neck --> 'kiak'x 2
middle upper back --> 'kiak'
lie on side twist left then right --> 'kiak'x2
legs --> 'kiak'

hmmm...maybe if i go a few more times, i really could grow a few cm taller, after he works out all the kinks in my joints...heh heh

complain blog

dam shack dam shack dam shack...
no motivation...
no inspiration...
feeling bleh...

waiting for somethg exciting to happen...
weekdays r too long n weekends too short...
need a haircut...need new eyeballs...need more time for myself...
need a massage...need to get zapped...need to grow taller
need a break...need to dive...need a man (haha)

it's december soon n m not goin on a trip...damn.

dang dang dang dang...(sing in cheena wedding march tune)

Itz true, the whole world has gotten or is getting married.
Just this month, I received news of 4 pending nuptials, there's Boss wee, Ms lim peh, J.Pang and ChyGene (hey! i coined this! betta than "Euroline" hee)
one wedding happening in Perth, one in bali...1 in S'pore...last one in Sin+LA (this one kiasu, scared not counted so must sign in 2 countries/timezones)...well done! ;)

Days like this i start wondering if i could cut it if i had to work overseas. Think i'm too comfortable here ah...gd frenz n family just a phonecall/taxi ride away. Just today, ex-collgs jio for dinner....then Dix jio go shopping...then chy called ask me whether i'm pretending to work.......then jo jo msn ask me dinner got plans or not....wahhhh...! how come it all comes at one shot la! And the choice i made? Go home eat homecooked 'ai xin' dinner coz mudder morning already 'chope' me say that she will cook. Think she must b feel abit bad coz she saw me munching on Mac's chicken wrap the night before (see la..ystd nobody jio me)

Such is the life of ze comfortable pea...heh...

A whale of an idea...

I confirmed today that I have very good frenz...frenz who r v concerned for my welfare n happiness n for that m grateful...My concerned frenz even discussed amongst themselves my 'single' status and wonder if i ever feel lonely. Hey...m an only child, i actually enjoy the solitude esp since we're bombarded everyday with pple n things...besides...m enjoying my life what...u mean u can't tell?

One of these shmart ass concerned frenz...even suggested that I shld stop hanging out with my regular kakis since most of them are married n unlikely to introduce me to single guys since most of their own frenz are also married. And his solution? I shld severe all ties with my married frenz! =O

By the way..this is also the same dude that made a comment that "whalesperm is salty, that's why the sea is salty!" (altho' spermwhales are indeed the largest sea-living creatures =P) Thankfully the other frenz in the discussion had much betta sense...so heng ah! If not ah...i confirm will get lonely siah!

Miracle electric master...

Just back from Powderful qi gong master's office. Eh...not everyone can see him one ley...by recommendation only...my frens are regulars and they brought me along to see the master. He is so powderful ah...he can channel electromagnetic energy thru' you. It's like freaking sticking ur fingers into the blardi socket...he can control the level (from 1 to 10) and where the 'current' passes...This guy shld be on some amazing reality tv show la!

Apparently, the master liked me enough to grant me a quick 5min sample...woah! powerful shit!...i felt the current thru my arm and my arm went into these involuntary spasms.......he touched my forehead towards the end and i literally 'saw stars'.....they say u can't think bad thoughts or try to seek treatment if u are doubtful......otherwise he might be quite nasty to ya(apprently he has mind reading capabilities too)....haa...so since i'm sooooooo nice n innocent n harmless n always think nothing but good thoughts =P....i was granted an apptm slot 2wks from now....even after 5mins my shoulders feel abit more relaxed so i can imagine how gd a full session wld be... =O

Boo boo...

Haiz...4th week into my new job n I make my 1st "not so big (heng ah!) but will be rather messy to clean up boo boo" ***hang head in shame***
Not looking fwd to it...gotta b more careful manz...i need bigger eyes...me pea-sized eyeballs not doing their job v well so far ah....

Just hope it won't be too painful to clear it up...i've got a musical to catch =P
ze play from paris...ze hunchback de notre dame! n ze pea has got a free ticket! life ain't that bad when u've got gd frenz .... thks my dear parallel universe fren! ;)

Ai Biah Jia Eh Yah...

Seems like I ain't the only one who is choosing to leave a 'cho bo lan' job to another plc where "I Biah Miah"......heee.....gd luck ah ben, hope itz a good choice..
N gd luck miss chua too...hope next time buy car got discount...heh

Today boss say he will try to ask if i can join them for some division dinner in HK...wah lau...'yuan lai' front office can lidat anyhow find excuse to spend money one...i'd rather the money go into my pocket loh...but thatz unfortunately not up to me...so we'll see how it goes... =P

Times flies...I feel like m getting old(er)...only when we get older do we feel n lament that time flies...2more mths n 2006 will be all used up. Woah...dam fast.

scouting for something...

Weekend's here n gone in a flash, my dear cousin's gotten himself married to a lovely lady who wants to have 4 kids with him(**jaw drop**think all the 300 guests quite stunned.) and who will love n honour him even if he grows old and turns semi bald like the funny priest Fr T who presided over the ceremony n kept all the guests entertained.



Me dear princess got herself a new puppy, now this i've gotta see...so.....let me introduce "Scout" her bouncy happy brownie border collie.





Her '1st born' Harper wasn't very amused and they'll have a hard time
pacifying both. Check out Harper's fiery evil stare...(ok ok...so i didn't use the anti-red eye shit on the camera...=P )


Back from dinner with the ever entertaining eugene n chy...i've learnt that my signature is as lazy as i am...thks gene...another useful reminder to cement my faith in my nuahness...m such a natural..what can i say...

was watching the last bit of 'bride n prejudice' on tv..quite farnee la...english words to indian sounding music, imagine signature baywatch red swimsuited angmohs..running along the beach to indian music...
That more or less ends yet another utterly nuah sunday....ahhh zeee best! =)

somethg's missing...& i feel uncomfortable...

hmmmm...feeling abit displaced...back from trip...no downtime...long week ahead...cousin's wedding on sat...tink abt it already feel exhausted liao.

I haven't seen my regular kakis for almost 2wks now...something's missing in my life...i miss u guyz! =P FATA says i'm going up on the FATDIX hall of fame......soooo sad! I'm gonna drop in the rankings real fast.....used to be the #1 hang out kaki ley (in terms of frequency la...hence u can roughly tell how free i was until 2wks ago)

I'm also missing my ex-cell mates, the comfort of knowing what the hell i was doing at work....can go to work and basically work without much brainjuice expanded.....all so ingrained n automatic back then...no sweat...no stress....
Can't say the same now....loads to learn n need to compress compress ...no time no time! Now...if only my brain will wake up n get into gear faster...

boss today say...company policy so they can't get me the blackberry....*woo hoo!* thank goodness for small graces...
If u know me well...my freedom is very very very precious to me...I'm already feeling dam 'kao weh' that my working hrs are awhole lot longer than b4...and i'm not one of those techy junkies...i'll trade that blackberry anyday! heh =P

Hope i'll get into groove real soon...*sigh*

changing gears...

Ahh..itz gd to be back in the comfort of home...
5days in HK can get pretty tiring..esp if you try to fit loads of shopping including hopping over the border to shenzhen. Pretty happy with my finds. Glad to have a great guide to show me arnd n who is gd company.

Was early at Hk airport n wandered arnd trying to look for a starbucks to get a shot of mocha. In the end gave up n wandered to the SQ departure lounge and voila! the tiny lil' starbucks outlet was directly in front of the gangway la! Cockanaden.
My conclusion, HK pple dun really drink ang moh kopi while S'poreans are the top supporters it.

Early this morning...while tossing n turning on the couch, I slipped in n out of a strange dream. This seldom happens to me, i hardly dream, i usually sleep v well. I dreamt that he 'came back'.....itz all a blur n all v strange......i kinda felt comforted n relieved....yet at the back of my mind...i knew it can't be and could actually feel the tugging at that familar spot in my heart. Woke up feeling not too great. On the flight back watched 'click'...a comedy right?....but with a message n quite heart warming ah.......aiya.....i cannot afford to be melancholic now ley...i need to be charged up abit ley....siow siow siow...

Can tell my 33 fren oso not feeling too great. Kinda reminds me of the chasing cars song :
"If I lay here...if i just lay here...
Would you lay with me and just forget the world?"
Guess sometimes we just wanna hit the 'off' or 'pause' button but unfortuately that doesn't happen in life

Fishy fishy

today i felt abit like a fish outta water...1st day on the job...everythg seems so foreign...
office feels kinda warm...far cry from the freezer room in my previous cell.
boss sitting next to me la! so how slack can I be? (very 'kau wek' la..really need some getting used to)
Bombarded with technological advances i didn't have to deal w previously....New systems...new ids...bloomberg anywhr access...supposed to have black berry somemore...i'd rather not loh...i want my downtime! =P

Then ah...thot ok...letz go pantry n take some water...keh keh act busy oso takes effort n makes me chui tah......
walk into pantry....fwah! blurrr ah!...there's like this huge tank.....with a huge arrowana......some luo han ......and 2 freaking stingrays la! and not those small ones like what u see at newton circus ...
2 thoughts ran thru' my head :
1)"wahhhhh...dam nice loh...when can i dive again"
2)"itz not right...those rays not meant to be here loh...i wanna go dive loh"

Ah well...today my 'tuition' ended quite early, could leave by 7pm...think this is gonna be the one n only day I'd be able to do that so i definitely treasure it manz..

Surrealism

My last day has come n gone...kinda surreal...guess maybe not really sinking in quite yet...of course if i think abt it...i will definitely miss the familarity...like 33 say maybe it will hit me when i start new job on monday and when i take mrt still alight at same stop n unconsciously walk towards old plc as it has been programmed in me for almost 3yrs liao. Time surely flies.
But i guess change is constant n we all gotta adapt to survive.

Just sms with 11 who is on his way to his well earned holiday. He say "our partnership ends today...gd luck with my new partner...tho' he thinks i will prefer him" errrr...dam ego loh...but u r right oso loh...at least 11...u're cuter (abit only la...u can come down from the clouds now...)

I was quite impressed that mamasan managed to control very well n hold it all in...then i just found out from 33 that her 'dam break' after we left la...adoi!
Will defintely miss the gd times...right side 11...left side ah cow (ze 3 dragons sitting in a row)...in front mms...10 o'clock got 33 to shoot 'knowing' looks at..heh...
even up there in cell 36...coco's every morning MIL complain session...the short time that auntie kang teach me stuff using flash card method...png kway b/fast in the mornings...

actually i'll be giving up quite abit of fun/personal time w my kakis as well...no more runs or swims in the evenings =(...i'll be lucky if i can join for makan after ur exercise sessions...don't forget me hor!

need dope?

2day already 2nd last day at the sinking ship. By right shld be ORD attitude liao, but farnee ley...11 n me machiam still like sibuay boh eng lidat. Poor fella teach tuition until sore throat, high blood pressure, steam rising from head...so siong until must see Dr Picasso who prescribed him steroids! That seemed to calm him down for only a short while...until he resumed tuition class..then wah piang...pek chek n puuu huei again...i keep hearing him say :"friday exam liao ley, u can still ask me this ah?" ......really sound like teacher loh....but maybe hor....11...itz gd training for ur next job ley...experience how a team lead 'might' feel.

2day oso 2pm last day. He blanjah us each one cup teh ($1 x 7 = $7 fwah! very ex ley)...then came n give farewell advice...then tell me he last time oso had chance to do trading (***roll pea sized eyeballs***) but he say he did't take it up as he felt he was too old to pick up n succeed then (he was given the chance at age 30....ahem....i'll be 30 in awhile loh...si-mi-wa-ko kana sai meaning har?!?)

steamed pea

had a 'work' lunch today. Erm..really got alot of work lined up when i start at the new plc...kinda lookg fwd to the change of scope...trying to prepare myself mentally for the effort required...and knowing how nuah I am...it is indeed a gigantic effort.

In preparation, i decided i shld be nice to myself on my mum's acct...heh...used up another hour of her massage package...niceeeeee....nicely steamed n marinated n kneaded pea...ahhhh....life shld be this good everyday...the way my body is knotted up, you'd think i do hard labour everyday...the therapist was dam patient n good la...now i'm toasty on the outside n supple n tender inside....hmmmm...perfect to hit the bed n zzzz.......

My 10min excursion...

got changed...grabbed my blades...headed out to hail a cab from the kerbside.
then suddenly 'tee orh orh' and could feel a few droplets on my head thru' my cap...
A quick call later....i 'gostan' hurry up walk home...then reach home...log on computer ....eat apple....heavy downpour...
that sums up my 10min sat excursion...
kana sai weather...

Sink...sank...sunk

The plot thickens...wah...after the info from 33 last evening...the bunch of us really dam disappted n disillusioned with these pple.

The things pple will do to advance their own. Think even mamasan in all her 30yrs of long service here also dam sim tiah at the way things are turning out and the treatment we are getting.

It's just a matter of time...we are powerless to change the system...however, options are always available, especially more so now than before...33 n cow will just hafta bide their time, choose wisely and proceed in your own best interest.

In the meantime, i'm glad i heeded an ex-boss advice to 'keep ur head down,do your work and keep your butt outta the line of fire". Quietly I come...quietly i will go...unless 11 decides to do a joke-of-the-mth-pseudo-wedding-montage-farewell-tribute to try and top BW's farewell kns-kiss-ass email.

We shall keep our Jan'07 date/deadline. We shall all meet at Six restaurant for a meal...and hope that ah qua walks by so we can all throw our new respective namecards in his face. heh heh.

Simply complicated?

Pea's musings for the day

I really don't understand some pple.... who in his right mind would ask for a job to head a team if you have zero/nada/zip/tak ada experience in the area?
(might as well tie your own noose n standby)

And 3 days into the job ask the outing personnel if they can come back for one day after they finish their notice period so that you can go on leave?
The audacity!
The absurdity!

Congratulations cell mates! you have a fantastic do-blindly, act-smart, ambitious mousy team leader-wannabe on your hands.
I hear that a simple folk he is not...then my question is...... if the work is really so "SIMPLE", then why do we need such a complicated fella to do it?

water pea

Your Element is Water

Your power colors: blue and aqua Your energy: deep Your season: winter Like the ocean, you evoke deep feelings and passion. You have an emotional, sensitive, and spiritual soul. A bit mysterious, you tend to be quiet when you are working out a problem. You need your alone time, so that you can think and dream.

What Element Are You?

crap

watched a really bad show...miami vice...
sorry guyz...i anyhow hantam...obviously neh do homework.
sitting thru' 2 full hrs trying to decipher the cop mambo jumbo n trying to lip read gong li's cannot make it english left us very confused...spent most of the time squinting at the big screen n thinking "what the f@#k did he/she just say?"
furthermore...colin farrell + gong li = cannot la!!! enuff said

the side show script was rather entertaining tho' :
Largely consisting of gene making some lewd comment -->chy giggling then tryg to repeat it to me --> then i 'amm chio' n come back with another wise ass remark --> chy giggles somemore n relates it to gene.
Ahhhh..what wld we do w/o our frenz? they see us thru' the worst of times...heh...

Since m on the subject...dun watch barnyard...itz really bad too...i watched like 15mins of it on a dvd already wanna fall asleep...monster house is way way wayy betta.

cldn't get a blardi taxi again...n didn't help that i still recovering from food poisoning so gut was feeling dam strange ...machiam a wind instrument lidat...hiaz...soooo glad to b finally home n comfy.

My lessons for this week?
1) We can't cook our own food (5.5 pple LS outta 8.5 pple is dam bad la)
2) Must do basic homework b4 booking tickets to watch show.
3) When in doubt, try to buy time, don't listen to just one side of the story, form ur own conclusion, follow ur gut (assuming itz not gassy n down w alot of problems la!) and dun give in to teddy bears no matter what!

sa-wa-terr-kah !

Back from phuket...land of a thousand smiles....where sometimes when u drive into petrol stations they will still smile at you and politely tell you they dun have petrol to sell you.....
i shall do lazy man method n just post some interesting sights...


When in thailand...look for bali hai...for dam super solid head and back massage.
but be warned...do not eat..drink or even attempt to swallow saliva before treatment...these pple really is 'gu lat choot ka liao' type...and i had all my bones 'cracked' from neck down to waist up...shiok ah! heh


Spent alot of time staring at this poster in front of a hairsalon...trying to do mental conversions which was dam hard when brain is on holiday as well.....dam cheap la...if 100Baht=abt SGD4...then rebonding = sgd16!!! unbelievable right? U dare to try? maybe there's a reason why the salon is empty...? I actually walk away liao but had to double back to take pic...my fren giggling at me la for being silly...






Went to phi phi island and came back with a rather heavy orange-hued-sleep-induced-koala. This my frens is a kodak moment siah...doesn't happen often one...

we think therefore we feel...

ok ok...so
*****ohmmmm.....m a happy healthy pea...la la la...ohmmmm *****

buckets...

watched monster house w 33...i must say it's 'not bad wor'...alil' bit dark for a cartoon...then when i realise steven spielberg had a hand in it...then no wonder la.
even had this part where it was quite touching...i didn't cry but my eyeballs got wet wet abit la..heh...

then i came home...packed my stuff...totter arnd abit then decided I have enough time to finish off my last episode of Grey's anatomy. Fwah ...dam good wor!...this time eyeballs not wet....eyeballs flooded siah...princess' warning was apt indeed.
(miss tan...stop laffing...)

so thatz why now i typing...coz need to wait awhile b4 go and sleep...otherwise 2mr 'bak chiu zeng zeng'...heh...

eventful few days

well...at least the wait is over...itz finally confirmed...i'm moving from a 'pple neh hear b4 bank to yet another pple neh hear b4 bank'...

i find it quite amusing...how u can be working in a place for 3 yrs...smile & say hi to the same faces but never really got to know them on a personal level. Then all of a sudden, when all u have is perhaps 3-4wks more in the same plc, suddenly pple seem friendlier...seem to make alil' bit more effort to engage in conversations etc. Itz ironic in a way...maybe the impending absence does indeed makes the heart grow abit fonder?

Was trying darn hard to plan a quick getaway trip before i start at the new plc...so desparate for kakis...in the end decided maybe itz betta to spend the money on spa here instead. who knows at the 11th hr today...i chatted w ze ever busy m'sian and found out a couple of them were actually heading for a short trip to phuket and the dates were perfect for me. So being the slightly more insistent pea that i've become...i got myself a self-invite and booked the air ticket to join them..heh...yayyy!!! at least i still get my short holiday...=)

so things work out in the end...goody goody...

i donch like...

I hate these endless waiting games...
i don't like to be kept waiting...
i don't like it when pple tell me abit but not the full story...
i don't like it when u dangle carrot in front of me but don't let me bite...
i don't like it when boss come by everyday to spotcheck n try to 'yiam' my computer screen...
i don't like it when i know what needs to be done but i can't 'action action' yet coz of factors out of my control...
i don't like it when pple ya-ya-papaya at me...
i don't like it when pple try to dig info from/abt me...
i don't like it when pple assume that one must be attached/married to be happy...
i don't like it when pple give me non-answers when all i need is a straightfwd yes or no...
i don't like it when pple hold back and not say what they wanna say to me...
i don't like it that itz so hard to find a group to go dive again...*sigh*...can someone pls bring back the good ol' times...

eh..ok..enuff...actually i meant to type only 1st 4 lines...but since i was on a roll ...whadd the hell...

on a lighter note: my goldfish-attention-span-fren called me again today to invite me to a singles' party...guess some pple really truely still just donch get it...?

ouch...

A well spent weekend...over so fast...bladed...swam...kopi-ed...biked...chee cheong fan-ed...

Least i felt like it was a wkend well spent...think my nuah-level decrease at least 2 levels liao...but that said...now my shoulders ache...butt hurts...i think i need a massage...or maybe take the next 2 wks off...

the tan i got today can only last a few days at most...i need a holiday...i need to breathe some compressed air...and feel weightless .....tioman anyone?